first days...

First days in new jobs are almost all the same. I don't think that there comes a time when you are ready to have a first day. However if the rain fall, you start of your day with getting lost and trying to wipe your screen to turn off the full beam, you get discouraged. No matter how great you are. Once you're there, things just pile up.

For a while now I have been praying for my family, even if it would cost me less happiness (cause I thought I was doing way too well), now I'm thinking: Can we not reach to a compromise?

I think I would just need someone around me when I'm thinking these thoughts and writing them down. I could really use a hug...

Fights

I think it has been a while since I wrote here. In the mean time, I have been on holiday...which was not as great as last year...as we both agreed with Simon and we have also done house hunting in our free time.
So we decided to buy a house and started to look at them for about a month now. We have set a couple of things that we want and just started searching for a house that has got it all. We've seen some great houses and poor areas and not so good looking houses in great areas. I think we have changed our priorities dozens of time, trying to get the most out of this.
We even had our first real fight about this. Which reminds me of a friend of mine who said that until they bought the house, they had a lot of fights with her husband. Not anymore. And then another friend of mine said that after they had their first child, they had some harsh words for the first time in their lives.
I think big decisions always go with pressure. And it's always good to have a couple of healthy fights to see at the end how much and why you love each other and I guarantee you if you love each other at the end it always works out for the best. This is what we are experiencing now. I actually think of it as something good and useful. It was about time...